In my last blog, Awaken your Warrior Part 1, I told you that I would get personal with you and share a little history about me, and how the domestication process put my inner warrior to sleep. As promised, here is the story of how I woke my warrior. Let’s start at the beginning.
The photo to the right is an image of me when I was three years old. My mom is on the right-hand side of the photo. My grandmother is on the left. When I was seven—four years after this picture was taken—my mother committed suicide and I lost her instantly. The next year, my grandmother (who was like my mom to me) died suddenly from a brain aneurism. So, all of a sudden I found myself dealing with a heart-breaking dose of childhood trauma.
Everyone responds to trauma differently. I responded to the pain of (what I experienced as) abandonment by becoming an overachiever. I got the idea that I had to do whatever I had to do to become a millionaire. I thought that if I became super successful financially then no one would leave me again. Also, I thought that by being successful, I would heal the pain that I felt inside. It would also fill the hole and the fear of abandonment that was in my heart. So, the natural warrior that could have sprung up was squashed, and it was replaced with a false sense of protection and security. Yet, it was only a temporary sense of satisfaction.
One day, it came to me in a flash. Suddenly, I realized that I was not living my truth. This realization hit me like a ton of bricks. It happened when I was away on a personal retreat in Arizona. I call it a personal legacy retreat in hindsight because during this time I really became clear about the purpose and direction of my life.
I took an inventory of my life, and I recognized that the natural born warrior that was within me was asleep. I was living according to the definition of success that had been projected onto me by the world and society. I had achieved all the trappings that we are taught to believe mean the most in life—financial wealth, power, and influence—but really, at my core, I knew that my personal truth lay dormant inside of me.
At that point, I made the decision that I was going to wake up, and I was going to break free and begin to live in my truth. This was the most critical decision that I could make for myself, and it has been a game changer for me. Now, I’m happier, healthier and productive living my truth. And you can too! Return on Thursday to learn the first steps toward your greatest happiness, best health and highest productivity by living your truth. The first step is self analysis. I will share with you the exact 12 assessment questions that I asked my self which launched me on the path to living my truth. See you back here on Thursday!